my mom keeps stressing me out over school, which is only making my grades go DOWN
and I have so much missing work
my stupid fucking heart can't keep to itself, no matter how many times I want it to. I keep finding myself liking people (two) and then I get my heart absolutely shattered.
My mom doesn't know about me being homoflex, or nonbinary, or using she/they so I'm struggling not to correct her whrn she's talking about me.
My stupid fucking dad is being a petty bitch over court shit
I literally want to kms or sh but I have nothing to sh w so I almost gouged ny eyes out with my fingers last night my friend literally had to make sure I was still alive, checking on me every hour
I might've killed my cat cuz I forgot she was being fixed today and two of them (the bug backs) were biting my ankles because they wanted food so I gave them food
I'm so insanely touch starved that I would do anything atp (w money involved) that I can somehow lessen the starvation
My friend told a teacher I was selfharming and then he pulled me aside and asked me to show my arms so I showed him my arm that I don't rlly do anything on and then he said the other one and when I would only show him the top and he just nodded I started sobbing and then he took me into the teacher work room in the office and then he got Miss D (I do NOT know what she does broski) and she was talking to me as I was honestly having a panic attack and then I went to guidance and I got to speak to the school psychologist and my guidance counselor and then now I get to go to therapy and any time I need to talk I have permission to go to the guidance office and if the seventh grade counselor isn't there the eighth one told me she would talk to me (she was in the room for a little bit bc my grade counselor was with someone)
I got kittens! And also my best friend since before I could walk died November 10th. That was the hardest I have ever cried in my life.
His name was Milo and he was my first cat ever, he let me do whatever to him even if he didnt like it and he was 14 possibly older. He took his last breath under my eye while I was holding his paw, we knew it would happen and he waited for me.
Im updating the desc fron "the stupid 5'8 6th grader" to "the stupud 5'9 7th grader" so if u ever need my height or grade this should update when I remember
i can't do this anymore. This week has been shitty, I broke my phone today and can't find my iPad so I gotta use my kindle for everything. If I don't have my phone I can't text anyone at all so I'm gonna be in some mental state when I tell my dad tmrw and I'm pretty sure he'll make me have a panic attack. I started sh again recently from stress but I don't use anything that leave permanent marks so I don't get yelled at, I have wanted to kill myself these past few days and I don't have the will to live anymore, my hammer is about to die because she already one. I'm not gonna handle her death well, I need some device to function and without one I'm gonna freak out, some photos refuse to save to my I cloud so I won't have them on my new phone and I'm not sure how the ibid paint I cloud update will work. Im so tired yet wide awake.
I found myself but at the same time I lost myself..? Does that make sense? Like I found myself gender, pronoun, and sexuality wise, but not love for myself wise? Like I still hate myself and still sh sometimes but still. I have a gf and she helps some but its not enough yknow? Like either I had her or not I would still sh, I would still hate my body. I wish I was fucking skinner and not fat.. And before you try to tell me "Your perfect the way you are" actually shut up because I could care less tbh. Saying that does nothing I'm still gonna have no confidence and a low self esteem, I'm still gonna hate my body and I'm still gonna beat myself up about it.
Nah I was having a mental breakdown shaved some of my eyebrow but messed it up so bad. Then Steve was like DO👏THE👏WHOLE👏THING👏
I love it, Steve loves it, Mom loves it, My brother likes it, My step sis likes it I think, my step bro doesnt realize it yet (Hes kinda oblivious ngl lol) my dad hates it and made it extremely obvi which made me cry when I got home. Bouta call my grandma and show her hope she doesnt freak-
Edit: she diesnt just freak but proceeded to say “WHY WOULD YOU DO THAT?! Yknow thats a gang sign” then she was ranting and told me “I hope when your smart you dont do that again” and then I kept crying while I was muted and had my video off and she said “People are gonna think your in a gang now hope you know that” and normally when I tell her I’m gonna go she says “Bye love you talk to you later” but when shes mad she says “Bye talk to you soon” and thats what she said..
I’m crying now. I knew this would happen-
Edit 2: my mom called her friend and she told me I looked bad ass lol
I’m babysitting tomorrow- I’m very exited bc am getting paid but also bc this is my FAVORITE 3 year old in the WORLD her name is Scarlet and because she cant pronounce my name properly she calls me Wampum. So now everyone has slowly started calling me Wampum and one time my grandma even sent me a video of her crying because she missed me so much- for Scarlet- she also calls my brother Calling instead of Colin lol
Heeeeello! This is me in a slightly good mood. I might take a break for a while because I’m trynna focus on myself rn. AKA Idc what yall gonna say but I’m gonna try to do like yoga and work outs because I’m mildly chunky. Especially in the tummy- so yeah. I’m taking my leave now. Idk when I will be back. OH BUT LOOK AT THIS BACKPACK MY MOM IS GONNA GET ME!
I have no idea when it will be here. She also got me new clothes for school <3
I hate people so much, they can be assholes <3 also Natalia I know your banned and cannot read this BUT (wait is that how banning works..?) I actually do focus on school, which is out rn because it SUMMER, my mom knows I curse and could care less as long as I dont curse infront of her. Anyways, heres some things I have to say because I’m tired of being treated like shit and being told I am underage to be on here: When I signed up, it did not tell ME I had to be atleast 13 so can yall fucking stop about that. Anyways. I’m gonna curse all I want ESPECIALLY after you are being rude to me and cursed me out <3. Also dont say I’m turning a certain age if you truly dont know what age I’m turning because it is rude and also who are you to say shit about me? Yes I may or may not quit the mgm comment and NO I WILL NOT FUCKING QUIT ITCH. Uhm this comment is long holy cow anyways. Idk what else to put here besides whats on my creator page-
Edit: Also who tf attacks people when they dont even have the energy to unfollow them lmao
Edit 2: IMAGINE DISLIKING EVERY POST I MAKE BUT LIKING YOUR “FRIEND” WHO DOESNT EVEN FUCKING KNOW ME LOL
its okay, we get u can get pressed. i mean at ur age i was trying to do robotics and not online on social media much cuz it's kinda screwed up, and i get that it's summer but ur going into middle school which is a big step from elementary school, so u should be preparing urself cuz im just gonna say now, people in middle school are assholes.
seriously. and i'm not trying to be a bitch just because it seems like it, recently my mental health and life have been going down hill and so that's probably part of the reason why i "cursed you out" which was nothing compared what i say to people when i'm actually super pissed.
i'm here to give people advice and too make them laugh-that's it, seriously. and i sorta doubt, not saying ur a liar but, i doubt that your mother knows that u curse. just saying, and yes, i can guarantee you, it does say you have to be a 13+ to be on the website.
i was 12 when i signed up but my birthday was in a few months so i didn't have to worry about people yelling at me, while you on the other hand is turning 12. i'm not gonna try to sound bitchy, just being honest-like i'm a person going into high school and HAS experienced middle school.
and tbh curse at me all you want, don't give a shit cuz my best friend left me for the most dumbest fucking reason that doesn't make any sense, so-yeah. i mean i don't take shit on people, only when they provoke me to. okay? okay.
glad we got that cleared. and that really isn't that long-it's like what i used to write in CTE, or actually no maybe 4 paragraphs more and it'd be CTE work. and i'm guessing you have zero clues what CTE is. it's career and technical education, which u probably don't care but ooookkkakyyyy-
also i really wasn't attacking you, more like correcting you. theres a difference from attacking, and correcting.
i was doing it because i was agreeing to their statement and i wasn't agreeing to yours, so-you kinda have to edit that-heh-
also, the reason why i yell at people is for a reason. i may come from a very shitty father, but i know how to control myself. yes i got anger issues cuz of him but-point being is that i scolded at you for a reason. i don't go randomly yelling at people-seriously, less if they are younger than me. only in roblox cuz kids...they be dumbasses...but seriously i want people to be successful in school, like this year i plan to focus more on school than social media and friends. so trust me, middle school is going to be VERY important for your future, even though ur going into 6th grade. when i was your age all i wanted was too talk to my friends-and that brought me NO good.
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also I still haven't gotten therapy yet (been stuck on the waiting list)
guys guess what 😖😖😖 all of my old picrews didn't transfer to my phone so its only on my ipad 😭😭😭😭
chipi chipi chapa chapa dubi dubi daba daba magico mi dubi dubi boom boom boom boom
I lowkey cannot take this anymore istg
my mom keeps stressing me out over school, which is only making my grades go DOWN
and I have so much missing work
my stupid fucking heart can't keep to itself, no matter how many times I want it to. I keep finding myself liking people (two) and then I get my heart absolutely shattered.
My mom doesn't know about me being homoflex, or nonbinary, or using she/they so I'm struggling not to correct her whrn she's talking about me.
My stupid fucking dad is being a petty bitch over court shit
I literally want to kms or sh but I have nothing to sh w so I almost gouged ny eyes out with my fingers last night my friend literally had to make sure I was still alive, checking on me every hour
I might've killed my cat cuz I forgot she was being fixed today and two of them (the bug backs) were biting my ankles because they wanted food so I gave them food
I'm so insanely touch starved that I would do anything atp (w money involved) that I can somehow lessen the starvation
My friend told a teacher I was selfharming and then he pulled me aside and asked me to show my arms so I showed him my arm that I don't rlly do anything on and then he said the other one and when I would only show him the top and he just nodded I started sobbing and then he took me into the teacher work room in the office and then he got Miss D (I do NOT know what she does broski) and she was talking to me as I was honestly having a panic attack and then I went to guidance and I got to speak to the school psychologist and my guidance counselor and then now I get to go to therapy and any time I need to talk I have permission to go to the guidance office and if the seventh grade counselor isn't there the eighth one told me she would talk to me (she was in the room for a little bit bc my grade counselor was with someone)
!TW! Blood & SH
uhm
so
I realized I'm homoflex a few months ago
and lets just say this boy
uhm
he asked this girl out as a joke
and hes one of my best friends aswell
he knows I like him
uhm anyways
she said yes
and uhm
it was last day right before spring break
today I asked him if it was serious.
He said yes.
Spring break I had multiple mental breakdowns iver this
but today
I just couldn't take it anymore
I self-harmed with a pocket knife the other day (sunday)
but it wasn't enough.
So today
uhm
i took apart a pencil sharpener
and now..
it looks like it belongs on #shtwt on Twitter.
II'm back again 😍😍 I got my phone taken tho so we on my very old fire tablet
I can’t tell if your talking to yourself or breaking the fourth wall
both.
*worried*
hehe
rubber johnny is honestly slays
The dog looked like it wanted to die ngl
I got kittens! And also my best friend since before I could walk died November 10th. That was the hardest I have ever cried in my life.
His name was Milo and he was my first cat ever, he let me do whatever to him even if he didnt like it and he was 14 possibly older. He took his last breath under my eye while I was holding his paw, we knew it would happen and he waited for me.
he waited..
The post below is smth I said that isnt happening anymore
I USED TO ROLEPLAY WITH YOU IN 2020. HELP ME LMFAOOOO
I DO NOT REMEMBER THAT 😭
UPDATE
I LOOKED
IM SOBBING
Hey guys little random update!
Im updating the desc fron "the stupid 5'8 6th grader" to "the stupud 5'9 7th grader" so if u ever need my height or grade this should update when I remember
Joe mamacita
Ok im done
!Vent! TW: sh, su!c!d@l thoughs
i can't do this anymore. This week has been shitty, I broke my phone today and can't find my iPad so I gotta use my kindle for everything. If I don't have my phone I can't text anyone at all so I'm gonna be in some mental state when I tell my dad tmrw and I'm pretty sure he'll make me have a panic attack. I started sh again recently from stress but I don't use anything that leave permanent marks so I don't get yelled at, I have wanted to kill myself these past few days and I don't have the will to live anymore, my hammer is about to die because she already one. I'm not gonna handle her death well, I need some device to function and without one I'm gonna freak out, some photos refuse to save to my I cloud so I won't have them on my new phone and I'm not sure how the ibid paint I cloud update will work. Im so tired yet wide awake.
coems 🤑
kaboom
Kapow
do you have neon flowers?
hi!
hi
hello
hru
I unfortunately dont
dw about it
hi!!
!VENT! (TW: SH mentions, self hate)
I found myself but at the same time I lost myself..? Does that make sense? Like I found myself gender, pronoun, and sexuality wise, but not love for myself wise? Like I still hate myself and still sh sometimes but still. I have a gf and she helps some but its not enough yknow? Like either I had her or not I would still sh, I would still hate my body. I wish I was fucking skinner and not fat.. And before you try to tell me "Your perfect the way you are" actually shut up because I could care less tbh. Saying that does nothing I'm still gonna have no confidence and a low self esteem, I'm still gonna hate my body and I'm still gonna beat myself up about it.
smash kermit ngl
Ok
hi.(P.S:i found ur goodbye party thing for me quitting. )
I KNOW YOU TOLD ME LMFAO
YES IK BUT STIOL
women
Wohman(s).
when cat is vibing:
w
h
a
t
okay 😀
Should I fucking up draw a rainbow in my eyebrow-
Nah I was having a mental breakdown shaved some of my eyebrow but messed it up so bad. Then Steve was like DO👏THE👏WHOLE👏THING👏
I love it, Steve loves it, Mom loves it, My brother likes it, My step sis likes it I think, my step bro doesnt realize it yet (Hes kinda oblivious ngl lol) my dad hates it and made it extremely obvi which made me cry when I got home. Bouta call my grandma and show her hope she doesnt freak-
Edit: she diesnt just freak but proceeded to say “WHY WOULD YOU DO THAT?! Yknow thats a gang sign” then she was ranting and told me “I hope when your smart you dont do that again” and then I kept crying while I was muted and had my video off and she said “People are gonna think your in a gang now hope you know that” and normally when I tell her I’m gonna go she says “Bye love you talk to you later” but when shes mad she says “Bye talk to you soon” and thats what she said..
I’m crying now. I knew this would happen-
Edit 2: my mom called her friend and she told me I looked bad ass lol
BRO
I JUST MET SOMEONE WHI HAS BEEN TO THE MENTAL ASYLUM 7 TIMES-
SHE SAID THERE WAS ROACHES THE BED FELT LIKE SLEEPING ON A BRICK AND THEIR FOOD WAS DISGUSTING-
(Kinda sounds like prison-)
AND YEAH-
i have a friend who's in a mental hospital rn
and i don't have contact w/ him at all
he's gonna be in it for like a couple of months
oh. I hope they are doing okay in there-
haha.
soup
Soup *nods head in agreement*
i requested u as a friend on disc btw
yes
Y’all-
I JUST NEED $8 AND MY MOMS APPROVAL BEFORE I CAN GET A BLUE RINGED OCTOPUS- also yes I know they are dangerous-
Okay but I might also get:
Rat
POSSIBLY 2 MICE?!
Another Lizard
Hamster?!
Pet turtle..?
GIVE ME RECOMENDS BESIDES SNAKES I PROMISE I HAVE TRIED TO CONVINCE MY MOM-
I’m bouta have a crying breakdown ☺️
RATATA
Has been drawn.
My spelling has been AMAZING thes past few days keke
heyaa
I
Drew
A
FANCY RATATA
He is very cute keke <3
SHOW SHOWW
ALR ALR
its to much to fit- max is 3 MB and its 8.5 MB- Imma ss it and see if it works-
Edit: OKAY OKAY LOOK
Isnt he so cute <3
Edit 2: Also I just friended U on roblox <3 I’m autumnthekitten1 display is TqddyBeqrYT
👁👄👁
(This is for a video I’m making LOL)
hiiiiiiiiiiiiii hru
I’m babysitting tomorrow- I’m very exited bc am getting paid but also bc this is my FAVORITE 3 year old in the WORLD her name is Scarlet and because she cant pronounce my name properly she calls me Wampum. So now everyone has slowly started calling me Wampum and one time my grandma even sent me a video of her crying because she missed me so much- for Scarlet- she also calls my brother Calling instead of Colin lol
I made cookies and uhm..
Lets just say they were bigger then my hand…
cookiess >3< ♡♡
they were good thi
Oh my god he doesn’t know how to tie shoelaces 😭💀
Man be like Gregory
A material gurl
I’m talking to you rabbit kun
I-
cock and ball tourture cbt is a sexual activity-
Imma shut up now
I-
bro shut up for 2 months💀
cringe pfp on god
bro has shut up for a year now😭
Heeeeello! This is me in a slightly good mood. I might take a break for a while because I’m trynna focus on myself rn. AKA Idc what yall gonna say but I’m gonna try to do like yoga and work outs because I’m mildly chunky. Especially in the tummy- so yeah. I’m taking my leave now. Idk when I will be back. OH BUT LOOK AT THIS BACKPACK MY MOM IS GONNA GET ME!
I have no idea when it will be here. She also got me new clothes for school <3
- Teddy
thats awesome!!! <33 keep focusing on your selfcare and wellbeing!!
hehe <3
helloo
hi!!
sup
I’m feeling good today for once <3
u never responded why u ban my other account 🥺🥺🥺🥺
nvm
haii! idk what time it is for you right now but i hope you're having a good day!! ^w^
awe
Ugh I need to get dressed but idk what to wear-
I hate people so much, they can be assholes <3 also Natalia I know your banned and cannot read this BUT (wait is that how banning works..?) I actually do focus on school, which is out rn because it SUMMER, my mom knows I curse and could care less as long as I dont curse infront of her. Anyways, heres some things I have to say because I’m tired of being treated like shit and being told I am underage to be on here: When I signed up, it did not tell ME I had to be atleast 13 so can yall fucking stop about that. Anyways. I’m gonna curse all I want ESPECIALLY after you are being rude to me and cursed me out <3. Also dont say I’m turning a certain age if you truly dont know what age I’m turning because it is rude and also who are you to say shit about me? Yes I may or may not quit the mgm comment and NO I WILL NOT FUCKING QUIT ITCH. Uhm this comment is long holy cow anyways. Idk what else to put here besides whats on my creator page-
Edit: Also who tf attacks people when they dont even have the energy to unfollow them lmao
Edit 2: IMAGINE DISLIKING EVERY POST I MAKE BUT LIKING YOUR “FRIEND” WHO DOESNT EVEN FUCKING KNOW ME LOL
its okay, we get u can get pressed. i mean at ur age i was trying to do robotics and not online on social media much cuz it's kinda screwed up, and i get that it's summer but ur going into middle school which is a big step from elementary school, so u should be preparing urself cuz im just gonna say now, people in middle school are assholes.
seriously. and i'm not trying to be a bitch just because it seems like it, recently my mental health and life have been going down hill and so that's probably part of the reason why i "cursed you out" which was nothing compared what i say to people when i'm actually super pissed.
i'm here to give people advice and too make them laugh-that's it, seriously. and i sorta doubt, not saying ur a liar but, i doubt that your mother knows that u curse. just saying, and yes, i can guarantee you, it does say you have to be a 13+ to be on the website.
i was 12 when i signed up but my birthday was in a few months so i didn't have to worry about people yelling at me, while you on the other hand is turning 12. i'm not gonna try to sound bitchy, just being honest-like i'm a person going into high school and HAS experienced middle school.
and tbh curse at me all you want, don't give a shit cuz my best friend left me for the most dumbest fucking reason that doesn't make any sense, so-yeah. i mean i don't take shit on people, only when they provoke me to. okay? okay.
glad we got that cleared. and that really isn't that long-it's like what i used to write in CTE, or actually no maybe 4 paragraphs more and it'd be CTE work. and i'm guessing you have zero clues what CTE is. it's career and technical education, which u probably don't care but ooookkkakyyyy-
also i really wasn't attacking you, more like correcting you. theres a difference from attacking, and correcting.
i was doing it because i was agreeing to their statement and i wasn't agreeing to yours, so-you kinda have to edit that-heh-
also, the reason why i yell at people is for a reason. i may come from a very shitty father, but i know how to control myself. yes i got anger issues cuz of him but-point being is that i scolded at you for a reason. i don't go randomly yelling at people-seriously, less if they are younger than me. only in roblox cuz kids...they be dumbasses...but seriously i want people to be successful in school, like this year i plan to focus more on school than social media and friends. so trust me, middle school is going to be VERY important for your future, even though ur going into 6th grade. when i was your age all i wanted was too talk to my friends-and that brought me NO good.